Sunday, November 20, 2005

Comfort Zones?

Once again, I apologise for the lack of blogging here. I've been really busy at work, and then I don't really use the internet much at home. So I've just not got around to it. I keep seeing things that I think I could write about then, I forget what they are when I sit down at my computer!

As I've mentioned before, I've been taking Tai Chi classes every week, which are going really well, and I totally love it. Although each week it's getting more and more complicated. But the other week it struck me that we all stand in the same place. It's as if there's this unwritten rule that you have to stand where you did the week before. I guess it's just a comfort thing, we've become used to our own little spot in the room, and to step away from that, would be something new and scary! I think that if anyone stood on the other side of the room, they would get a funny look from the other people, as if you didn't belong there, a "what are you doing here?" kind of look! I started to think about similar situations where this happens, and I realised that it goes on all the time. In my office, we don't have set desks, but everyone always sits in the same place. Everyone knows that all the computers are the same, and it doesn't really make a difference where you sit, but again, it's just what we're used to. It even happens in our living room at home. the three of us have our usual spots on the sofa. we seem to migrate to our little individual spaces. It amused me to think that a space in a room could hold so much comfort to people, especially when around people you don't really know so well.

On a different note, the weather here in Derby recently has been just wonderful. It's absolutely freezing, but sunny out, so you get that wonderful crisp air that catches in the back of your throat the moment you step outside. The grass is all frosty and crunchy when you walk on it, the puddles are starting to freeze over, so that when you walk to the shops you have to be careful where you stand so as not to fall over. The people you pass are all wrapped up in scarves, hats and gloves (or mittens in my case!!!). The sky is probably more blue now than it was over the summer, and the sunshine takes a little bit of the bite out of the weather. it's perfect walking weather - not going anywhere, just walking. Also, the Christmas lights are being turned on in Derby tonight, which means that Christmas is just around the corner! I'm so excited...i can't wait! Christmas is my favourite time of year, it's so beautiful, with the lights all around the city, and in people's houses. On the whole people are that little bit cheerier around Christmas, after the gloom and doom of September and October when everything is just grey. Oohhhh, it's just too exciting! I become like a little kid again, the magic of Christmas is just too much to take! YEY!

Well, that's enough from me right now, I'll try and update a little more regularly, I do miss blogging!

take care everyone!

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Waiting and Hoping

I spent all evening watching the door
Always waiting, hoping for more
Than just a promise of your company
But once again you let me down
Once again it slipped your memory

I’m not sure how more I can take
So many words you say so fake
You raise my hopes and keep me expecting
The happiness that may arise
From our overdue adjoining

When will you realise how good we’ll be
When we’re together, why can’t you see?
This one union of two lonely hearts
Could be the most amazing thing
Never again to be apart

But as it was you didn’t arrive
Are you too scared to take that dive
Into something new and unmapped
You don’t have to worry I’ll be right there
Alongside you to help you adapt

It’s just as strange and new to me
Just do one thing and promise me
I’ll never have to watch that door
And sit here surrounded, alone
Waiting and hoping for that little bit more